It hurts. But gotta be strong.

I’ve been a loner my whole life.
I tried to change it but failed.
Tried to be fun and funny when I’m out with family and friends but failed.

Ever since I start this new job, I’m starting to feel like I have no life and that my world revolves around work.
But I thought that during my off days I will be able to meet up with my love ones but no, no one find for me.
It breaks my heart everytime after I touch down, I switched on my hp to see if any of my friends or cousin text me, but I see nothing. 
I feel so alone.
And it makes me feel so sad that I can cry my eyes out.
I don’t feel loved at all.

Bf has been gone for 7 months.
This made me stronger.
I’ve learnt to manage things on my own.
I’ve learnt to be more independent.
But he have no idea that it has been so hard for me getting through all this.
I just keep a straight face because I don’t want people to view me as weak.
And I miss him like crazy.

Love,
Lina Farhana